I opened my eyes. I was tied with my hands behind my back and my face was covered with dirt and blood. My lips were hurting I smelled blood. My guts had pain as if I was having a baby. I tried to crawl but my body hurt as if 100s of needles were into me.
Then I heard something and I looked up to see him. I was so pleased seeing him. Finally, he was here. My amazing Knight.The love of my life…… I felt safe .
But something was not quite right. He wasn’t helping me. He wasn’t even looking at me. He just sat there …calm peaceful and took another sip. He was drinking whiskey … I could see ice in that glass… 2 ice cubes ….Just as he liked it whole his life.
How the fuck can he drink when I am tied here.His cigarette was next to the ashtray . He was just gazing out towards the window. I wonder what he was looking at and why he was smiling ?? I screamed but my voice didn’t leave my mouth.
Softly then he spoke, without even looking at me “””” We all have desires u know, desires are the things that make us sane.Otherwise, in this cold world of dual faced people and dual-edged swords, it’s too easy to be lost. To be someone you are not and not even want to be”” ……
He took another sip and continued “” It’s true humans shape things around them but it’s not just things ……they embrace, interact and shape their fellow humans too …into the molds of their own minds. I guess that’s pretty normal. Everyone loves power ….power on someone.. something .. anything to feel good about themselves. To be dominant and lay down your best hand every time someone is about to lose.
But is this power real?? … Is it…. He choked on his words “” To oppress..to bind ….to cage … To put someone in bondage….I have been on the both ends of this road … Caging someone gives you the pleasure…some pleasure which nothing can provide you it’s like the force that drives you nuts … More heavy than coke more smoother than malana cream …””
He took another drag of filthy cigarette from ashtray which was kept there… He took a long drag and stubbed the butt into it … He lit another and then spoke again ” You know it goes hard when u r in love with them … U know the pain but you can’t stop ..you are not just binding them ….you yourself are chained with the shackles of your desires. It’s amazing to see sometimes the gush of blood going down from someone’s head . ,,,
He turned and asked have you ever tasted blood … The warmth of it ??? The deep redness in its waves. Oh, wait I forgot ……. He kneels down and removes the rag out of my mouth and I take deep breaths and cough. I gasp for air. I should’ve screamed but I wanted to hear. I wanted to know.. ….. I don’t know why???
He got back to the chair and pulled it in front of me. Sitting there in that comfy chair there he was….right in front of me…- A man I loved, a man I adore, A subject of my thesis, My love … Or just a crazy … A schizophrenic patient … Who doesn’t know who he is … Who I am … What kind of man forgets his wife?? Who forgets that the woman in front of him is the one who gave birth to his child??. I don’t know how can someone forget all that …is that only the power of love ???.
He was looking dead into me. His fingers were again circling around something on the table– A gun. An IMI DESERT EAGLE… Ironically I bought him that on his 30th birthday cause he loved it …
“I asked you something”… His tone changed to anger……. “Why did you want this?? Why you wanted to come between me and my wife ??””
He stood up … I shivered. He walked to the window and started blabbing….. “No, I want to know first why she did that. I just can’t let it go. ……… Yes, I will take care of her … Then we will be together love …””
I dropped my jaw. He was looking in thin air … Who was he talking to ??? He leaned as if he is going to kiss someone… His hand held around nothing and he did the most disgusting thing ever. His lips moved. He really was kissing someone. but who ?? There was nobody there. Was I not seeing what he is ??
He turned to me and with his gun facing me and said ” See,, I always loved my wife and no one can come between us””
That’s all I heard ……..Ever.